Monday, January 28, 2008
Crash post
Okay. The past few days were a blur. My body is aching for unclear reasons. It’s not as if I’ve joined a marathon or do any hard labour. I’m just… *bleargh*. Despite the low batt, my mind is working overtime. It’s crazy because I can’t sleep with all the thinking. It’s really loud; it gives me a headache.
I sometimes wish my courage is as loud as my self consciousness.
If I weren’t so polite and nice. I’d tell many people to go jump off the marina. It amazes me how people could just start screaming and swearing without even thinking if they were right or wrong. The important thing is to be heard. As if volume is some sort of power. To stress your point add in all the foul words you could think of in every language available, bang tables and point fingers. *tsk tsk tsk*
If I weren’t so shy, I’d go and talk to all those men I only drool at. They may just laugh at me, but who cares right?
All I do is listen quietly and run away. *rolls eyes* What is wrong with me?
I had the weirdest dream last night. I was in a building with a guy whom I shall refer as X (whose face I saw but cannot remember). We overheard a conversation that we shouldn’t listen and X recorded the whole thing. When we heard enough, we walked out of the building fearing for our safety. We were about to cross the road when a lady stood next to us and told us whatever we heard was true and needed to be stop. She said she knew we were there and told us to run as they (the bad guys) knew about us and are looking for us.
So X and I started running. We wanted to jump into a yellow-coloured bus, but it drove away before we got into it. So we ran towards a deserted building, hoping they would not find us there. We walked in the building and found a secret underworld. It looked so much like the Hogwart’s hall (Harry Potter), I even mentioned it in my dream. The whole place was decorated beautifully. Like a Halloween party but it was Christmas. There was also a huge gorgeous Christmas tree and I told X if we get out of this one, we’re going to get a similar tree for next year. When I thought we were safe, we could see the bad guys were already in the building and we had to go. We started running and finally we were surrounded by men with weapons. That’s when I woke up.
The dream felt so real I have goose bumps just thinking about it. I can still clearly remember the colour of the bus we missed, the balloons and the Christmas decorations. How weird is that?
I must also admit that I am wondering who the guy was because it felt really safe to be with him.
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Sorry people. I’m just a little tired/lazy these days.
Don’t ask me what I did because all I remember doing is doing nothing. I spent the whole weekend at home with my son watching TV and surf the net. I tried to teach Ekiel to play those online games for children but he keeps telling me he doesn’t know how so I ended up playing with him as my cheerleader “Good job Mommy!”
Ekiel has grown so much, he sometimes he worries me when he starts talking like an adult.
Ek: Mommy, I want bottle
Me: Where’s your bottle?
EK: There…
Me: Bring it here
EK: No, you bring it here
Me: You want bottle, you bring it here
EK: Ish, pemalas oh you this mommy (you’re so lazy mommy)
EK: Mommy don’t go to work
Me: Cannot. Must go to work. If no work, no bottle
EK: I drink water only
I sometimes wish my courage is as loud as my self consciousness.
If I weren’t so polite and nice. I’d tell many people to go jump off the marina. It amazes me how people could just start screaming and swearing without even thinking if they were right or wrong. The important thing is to be heard. As if volume is some sort of power. To stress your point add in all the foul words you could think of in every language available, bang tables and point fingers. *tsk tsk tsk*
If I weren’t so shy, I’d go and talk to all those men I only drool at. They may just laugh at me, but who cares right?
All I do is listen quietly and run away. *rolls eyes* What is wrong with me?
I had the weirdest dream last night. I was in a building with a guy whom I shall refer as X (whose face I saw but cannot remember). We overheard a conversation that we shouldn’t listen and X recorded the whole thing. When we heard enough, we walked out of the building fearing for our safety. We were about to cross the road when a lady stood next to us and told us whatever we heard was true and needed to be stop. She said she knew we were there and told us to run as they (the bad guys) knew about us and are looking for us.
So X and I started running. We wanted to jump into a yellow-coloured bus, but it drove away before we got into it. So we ran towards a deserted building, hoping they would not find us there. We walked in the building and found a secret underworld. It looked so much like the Hogwart’s hall (Harry Potter), I even mentioned it in my dream. The whole place was decorated beautifully. Like a Halloween party but it was Christmas. There was also a huge gorgeous Christmas tree and I told X if we get out of this one, we’re going to get a similar tree for next year. When I thought we were safe, we could see the bad guys were already in the building and we had to go. We started running and finally we were surrounded by men with weapons. That’s when I woke up.
The dream felt so real I have goose bumps just thinking about it. I can still clearly remember the colour of the bus we missed, the balloons and the Christmas decorations. How weird is that?
I must also admit that I am wondering who the guy was because it felt really safe to be with him.
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Sorry people. I’m just a little tired/lazy these days.
Don’t ask me what I did because all I remember doing is doing nothing. I spent the whole weekend at home with my son watching TV and surf the net. I tried to teach Ekiel to play those online games for children but he keeps telling me he doesn’t know how so I ended up playing with him as my cheerleader “Good job Mommy!”
Ekiel has grown so much, he sometimes he worries me when he starts talking like an adult.
Ek: Mommy, I want bottle
Me: Where’s your bottle?
EK: There…
Me: Bring it here
EK: No, you bring it here
Me: You want bottle, you bring it here
EK: Ish, pemalas oh you this mommy (you’re so lazy mommy)
EK: Mommy don’t go to work
Me: Cannot. Must go to work. If no work, no bottle
EK: I drink water only
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Jalan2 cari makan
In my almost 30 years of life, I have not been to many places not only in Sabah but around Kota Kinabalu as well. *head hangs in shame* I cannot explain why but like some or most people, I take those places for granted. You know, it’s there and will always be there and I will get there eventually. Of course, most time that eventually never comes.
I could count all the places I’ve visited in Sabah with my two hands.
Right hand
1. Sandakan – Beluran (my mom’s village, Sandakan town, Sepilok
2. Tenghilan – stayed in a lodge
3. Kiulu – camp by the Kiulu river & camp in one of the school
4. Beaufort – camp in a school / church
5. Papar – stayed in one of the resort
Left hand
1. Tuaran – day trip
2. Kundasang/Ranau – stayed in Bundu Tuhan, Perkasa Hotel (now different name), day trip to Kinabalu Park
3. Kiansom – day trip to Kiansom waterfall
4. Penampang – day trip to one of the rivers – Lutong Mutong, Babagon, overnight at the Sugud waterfall (not sure if this is the one though)
5. Manukan Island – overnight & several day trips
I’m pretty sure that is all the places I’ve visited. I might be wrong because these days my memory fails me miserably.
People always surprise me by telling me of places (especially eating outlets) I’ve never even heard of. I must admit, I never even set foot on the famous ones like Atmosphere. Again, please do not ask me why. I would not be able to tell you.
I have heard of this shop at Sinsuran that sells very good Tom Yam in 2002 and I finally get to taste it three weeks ago. It was really good and I am looking forward for someone to invite me to the same shop to try their other equally well known dishes.
Anyway, some friends were talking about this particular location known for its fresh and cheap seafood, and I was hooked. I LOVE SEAFOOD. I was a bit worried on the location because that particular venue wasn’t known for their cleanliness and I have this thing about hygiene. I found out that many tour guides bring foreigners to this place and they have no problem eating there. So I told myself if the place was good enough for them, then it is good enough for me. True enough, the food was not only good and cheap, the place was very clean too. See, never judge a place by its reputation.
The night stalls are located behind the Philippine market. There are rows of stalls selling varieties of grilled seafood – fish, squid, prawns, crabs, etc. I was also introduced to two types of seaweed, which I tried and didn’t really fancy. At least I tasted it. Now I’m waiting for more invitation to that place. By the way, I have no idea what is that place called.
I miss blogging but it’s difficult for me to even finish one in a day.
I could count all the places I’ve visited in Sabah with my two hands.
Right hand
1. Sandakan – Beluran (my mom’s village, Sandakan town, Sepilok
2. Tenghilan – stayed in a lodge
3. Kiulu – camp by the Kiulu river & camp in one of the school
4. Beaufort – camp in a school / church
5. Papar – stayed in one of the resort
Left hand
1. Tuaran – day trip
2. Kundasang/Ranau – stayed in Bundu Tuhan, Perkasa Hotel (now different name), day trip to Kinabalu Park
3. Kiansom – day trip to Kiansom waterfall
4. Penampang – day trip to one of the rivers – Lutong Mutong, Babagon, overnight at the Sugud waterfall (not sure if this is the one though)
5. Manukan Island – overnight & several day trips
I’m pretty sure that is all the places I’ve visited. I might be wrong because these days my memory fails me miserably.
People always surprise me by telling me of places (especially eating outlets) I’ve never even heard of. I must admit, I never even set foot on the famous ones like Atmosphere. Again, please do not ask me why. I would not be able to tell you.
I have heard of this shop at Sinsuran that sells very good Tom Yam in 2002 and I finally get to taste it three weeks ago. It was really good and I am looking forward for someone to invite me to the same shop to try their other equally well known dishes.
Anyway, some friends were talking about this particular location known for its fresh and cheap seafood, and I was hooked. I LOVE SEAFOOD. I was a bit worried on the location because that particular venue wasn’t known for their cleanliness and I have this thing about hygiene. I found out that many tour guides bring foreigners to this place and they have no problem eating there. So I told myself if the place was good enough for them, then it is good enough for me. True enough, the food was not only good and cheap, the place was very clean too. See, never judge a place by its reputation.
The night stalls are located behind the Philippine market. There are rows of stalls selling varieties of grilled seafood – fish, squid, prawns, crabs, etc. I was also introduced to two types of seaweed, which I tried and didn’t really fancy. At least I tasted it. Now I’m waiting for more invitation to that place. By the way, I have no idea what is that place called.
I miss blogging but it’s difficult for me to even finish one in a day.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Because I said so
The next person who says I’m choosy will get a good beating from me. *does karate chops* The funny thing is, it is always the women who tells me this. The men just shrug me off.
I was out of control for the past few days. My temper rose over the smallest thing especially when I am at home. Thank goodness I have enough common sense not to lose my cool. I am just tired of the second-class treatment not only in the office but also at home. It’s not their fault really, I know I am just being over sensitive over idiotic things. *hangs head in shame* Ohh, I don’t know. I’m just going to blame my hormones for this.
Have you ever gone through days not liking everything you do, see, touch, hear or eat? To make it worse, you don’t even know what you want. All you know is you don’t want things to be that way. Yes, my grouchiness is BACK with a vengeance.
I think as I get older, I am becoming more impossible.
X: The girl was shocked to hear me telling XboyX that I am in pain because I am having my menses.
Me: Why did you tell XboyX that? You hardly know him.
X: He’s a big boy. He should know the facts of life.
Me: Yeah, but he doesn’t need to know when you’re bleeding.
X: To me, it’s a natural thing. It’s not like I’m telling him about my vagina.
Me: …
I can never win this sort of argument. In fact I rather not win it if it stops the other person from continuing the topic. I don’t know what to say. I like to think myself as an open minded person but there has to be a fine line where the openness stops. To tell your other half or even your good friend is understandable. But to tell someone you barely know… what will that person do with that info anyway? Maybe to run far far away from you.
I’m sorry but I am so damn bored. *arrgghhh* *bangs head on wall*
So many things I could do but my mind and body just refused to do it. Maybe I need to start yoga or pilates. *LOL* Yeah right. Who am I kidding?
Last night I watched Because I Said So by Diane Keaton (Something’s Gotta Give), Mandy Moore (A Walk To Remember), Lauren Graham (Gilmore Girls), Piper Perabo (Coyote Ugly), etc. It’s about a meddling mother who tries to set her daughter up with the right man so her kid won't follow in her footsteps. I love the fantastic casts, and the simple but witty storyline/script. I also love their wardrobe.
Gabriel Macht who played Johnny is hot. I wish Johnny exist in real life.
I was out of control for the past few days. My temper rose over the smallest thing especially when I am at home. Thank goodness I have enough common sense not to lose my cool. I am just tired of the second-class treatment not only in the office but also at home. It’s not their fault really, I know I am just being over sensitive over idiotic things. *hangs head in shame* Ohh, I don’t know. I’m just going to blame my hormones for this.
Have you ever gone through days not liking everything you do, see, touch, hear or eat? To make it worse, you don’t even know what you want. All you know is you don’t want things to be that way. Yes, my grouchiness is BACK with a vengeance.
I think as I get older, I am becoming more impossible.
X: The girl was shocked to hear me telling XboyX that I am in pain because I am having my menses.
Me: Why did you tell XboyX that? You hardly know him.
X: He’s a big boy. He should know the facts of life.
Me: Yeah, but he doesn’t need to know when you’re bleeding.
X: To me, it’s a natural thing. It’s not like I’m telling him about my vagina.
Me: …
I can never win this sort of argument. In fact I rather not win it if it stops the other person from continuing the topic. I don’t know what to say. I like to think myself as an open minded person but there has to be a fine line where the openness stops. To tell your other half or even your good friend is understandable. But to tell someone you barely know… what will that person do with that info anyway? Maybe to run far far away from you.
I’m sorry but I am so damn bored. *arrgghhh* *bangs head on wall*
So many things I could do but my mind and body just refused to do it. Maybe I need to start yoga or pilates. *LOL* Yeah right. Who am I kidding?
Last night I watched Because I Said So by Diane Keaton (Something’s Gotta Give), Mandy Moore (A Walk To Remember), Lauren Graham (Gilmore Girls), Piper Perabo (Coyote Ugly), etc. It’s about a meddling mother who tries to set her daughter up with the right man so her kid won't follow in her footsteps. I love the fantastic casts, and the simple but witty storyline/script. I also love their wardrobe.
Gabriel Macht who played Johnny is hot. I wish Johnny exist in real life.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
actively not
I spend my Saturday night playing SpongeBob Collapse and listening to my collection of favorite songs from Calendar Girl to Bohemian Rhapsody to Hey There Delilah. Though it’s raining outside, I am feeling rather warm. Maybe the flu/fever/cough is messing with my body because my temperature goes up and down like crazy for the past week.
Everyone is falling sick but there is no need to deliberately cough on my face just because you think it’s funny. *rolls eyes* I told you to cut it out but somehow you took it as your cue to further irritate me. Some people really need to grow up and learn some manners. *tsk tsk tsk*
I think my drinking exercises only made the flu/fever/cough bug stronger.
*cough cough* Great, now my throat hurts.
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I’m on an eating spree and it’s scary. I would unconsciously grab a chocolate bar (and I don’t even like them!) or anything I could find and only realize what I was doing until I’m full/done. Hee. Well not really like that but the non-stop eating bit is true. *sighs* I need to learn to ignore my food craving. Why is it so damn difficult? I have five big events (so far) this year and we all know how hard it is for me to find anything decent (a.k.a. that doesn’t scare people away) to wear.
I just realize the culprit behind the craving, but I still think I should have more self control.
Today I am asked to fill in my own probationary performance appraisal. Wtf? Is this some kind of a test for me? No matter what I fill, it will surely become an issue. This is a sick joke and I have no tolerance for silliness today. *sticks tongue out* I think I’ll get someone to fill it for me.
According to someone, she doesn’t think I am an active person. Felt a little upset when I suddenly realize what she said was true. *LOL* The last time I play any sports (futsal) was over a year ago and that was an painful experience. I need to get my lazy arse do some exercise. I need and I must. Oohhh… the pressure.
Everyone is falling sick but there is no need to deliberately cough on my face just because you think it’s funny. *rolls eyes* I told you to cut it out but somehow you took it as your cue to further irritate me. Some people really need to grow up and learn some manners. *tsk tsk tsk*
I think my drinking exercises only made the flu/fever/cough bug stronger.
*cough cough* Great, now my throat hurts.
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I’m on an eating spree and it’s scary. I would unconsciously grab a chocolate bar (and I don’t even like them!) or anything I could find and only realize what I was doing until I’m full/done. Hee. Well not really like that but the non-stop eating bit is true. *sighs* I need to learn to ignore my food craving. Why is it so damn difficult? I have five big events (so far) this year and we all know how hard it is for me to find anything decent (a.k.a. that doesn’t scare people away) to wear.
I just realize the culprit behind the craving, but I still think I should have more self control.
Today I am asked to fill in my own probationary performance appraisal. Wtf? Is this some kind of a test for me? No matter what I fill, it will surely become an issue. This is a sick joke and I have no tolerance for silliness today. *sticks tongue out* I think I’ll get someone to fill it for me.
According to someone, she doesn’t think I am an active person. Felt a little upset when I suddenly realize what she said was true. *LOL* The last time I play any sports (futsal) was over a year ago and that was an painful experience. I need to get my lazy arse do some exercise. I need and I must. Oohhh… the pressure.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
eh?
The other day…
This is SO going to be a whining entry from me. So if you’re already having a bad day, my advice is, please come back after few days for a more cheerful and witty entry. Thank you.
I am sick and tired of the discrimination. I really am. If I didn’t need the money, I would just walk away. Unfortunately my sanity stops me from acting like him, swearing, yelling and sending stupid emails like a useless idiot. I have more class than that. I would never let someone as low as him turns me into someone I dislike.
The problem is I am running out of patience and patience doesn’t come in bottles. So people, we may have a problem.
I really don’t understand it. I don’t understand how anyone can be so evil. Maybe I am emotional because this is the first time in my professional life where someone treats me like shit. It sucks. Big time. I work long hours doing my work without screw ups and even does other people’s work for them. I stay out of politics and never give anyone trouble. So why is he finding fault with me?
Get a life you *toot*
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Today…
I am feeling so much better because I had a really funny/weird dream last night. I guess I was talking about it so much and it actually creeps into my dream. *LOL* I would not share the dream because make me shy only. *blushes*
I get to go out dancing with some of my girlfriend last Wed at one of the local hot spots in town. Yes, I went to the same place I went with my siblings. The crowd is still either way younger or older than me. Or at least that what it feels like that night. It doesn’t matter though because I was there not to “guy watch” but to dance and dancing I did. Okay, maybe not really dancing but imitating other people’s funky dance move. The important thing was, I had fun.
Few things I didn’t like that night was the crampy dance floor and people who doesn’t understand the concept of good manners. I don’t care how drunk/high/important you are, but please, no excessive physical contact because it’s rude. And they don’t even bother to pardon themselves. So uncivilized. *rolls eyes*
Do I become something else when my status was different?
I can’t believe it’s the 12th of Jan already. *freaks out*
Changes are inevitable this year. Still undecided if those changes are for the betterment of things, but again I do want to be optimistic so let’s just pretend it is good until I say otherwise.
I received a few of those 2008 horoscope predictions. You know this is purely for fun only for the obvious reasons. All the readings are so different from one another, it’s crazy. “This is not a good year to meet someone” “This year you will find your soul mate”. Clearly, someone like me would rather celebrate the prediction that leads to a happily ever after. Not that I went and book a wedding chapel or anything.
By the way, it did say I will win some money through 4D though it didn’t specify what numbers to buy like some star signs (so bloody unfair) but if it’s meant to be, it doesn’t matter what number I buy because it will surely win right? Right?
This is SO going to be a whining entry from me. So if you’re already having a bad day, my advice is, please come back after few days for a more cheerful and witty entry. Thank you.
I am sick and tired of the discrimination. I really am. If I didn’t need the money, I would just walk away. Unfortunately my sanity stops me from acting like him, swearing, yelling and sending stupid emails like a useless idiot. I have more class than that. I would never let someone as low as him turns me into someone I dislike.
The problem is I am running out of patience and patience doesn’t come in bottles. So people, we may have a problem.
I really don’t understand it. I don’t understand how anyone can be so evil. Maybe I am emotional because this is the first time in my professional life where someone treats me like shit. It sucks. Big time. I work long hours doing my work without screw ups and even does other people’s work for them. I stay out of politics and never give anyone trouble. So why is he finding fault with me?
Get a life you *toot*
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Today…
I am feeling so much better because I had a really funny/weird dream last night. I guess I was talking about it so much and it actually creeps into my dream. *LOL* I would not share the dream because make me shy only. *blushes*
I get to go out dancing with some of my girlfriend last Wed at one of the local hot spots in town. Yes, I went to the same place I went with my siblings. The crowd is still either way younger or older than me. Or at least that what it feels like that night. It doesn’t matter though because I was there not to “guy watch” but to dance and dancing I did. Okay, maybe not really dancing but imitating other people’s funky dance move. The important thing was, I had fun.
Few things I didn’t like that night was the crampy dance floor and people who doesn’t understand the concept of good manners. I don’t care how drunk/high/important you are, but please, no excessive physical contact because it’s rude. And they don’t even bother to pardon themselves. So uncivilized. *rolls eyes*
Do I become something else when my status was different?
I can’t believe it’s the 12th of Jan already. *freaks out*
Changes are inevitable this year. Still undecided if those changes are for the betterment of things, but again I do want to be optimistic so let’s just pretend it is good until I say otherwise.
I received a few of those 2008 horoscope predictions. You know this is purely for fun only for the obvious reasons. All the readings are so different from one another, it’s crazy. “This is not a good year to meet someone” “This year you will find your soul mate”. Clearly, someone like me would rather celebrate the prediction that leads to a happily ever after. Not that I went and book a wedding chapel or anything.
By the way, it did say I will win some money through 4D though it didn’t specify what numbers to buy like some star signs (so bloody unfair) but if it’s meant to be, it doesn’t matter what number I buy because it will surely win right? Right?
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
favourite post
Another tag from Carolchs. *yay*
Something to take my mind off from all the drama.
Pick five favourite posts that are related to my family.
So here they are in no particular order.
1. Mommy
2. Oh what a night
3. Blue-ish Monday
4. What’s your name?
5. Meow Meow
Enjoy.
Something to take my mind off from all the drama.
Pick five favourite posts that are related to my family.
So here they are in no particular order.
1. Mommy
2. Oh what a night
3. Blue-ish Monday
4. What’s your name?
5. Meow Meow
Enjoy.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
i hate WUSS
In FB, there’s an application where people get to either vote you as cute or sexy. Sadly, people think I’m cute. *LOL* Don’t get me wrong, I do appreciate the comments, but the word cute should not be used to describe a 30 year old mommy. I’d rather be called Hot Mama or Sexy Mommy. *bats eyelashes sexily* Thank you very much. Hee.
I bought a very nice pair of opened toe heels yesterday. It wasn’t in my “Things I Need Urgently” list but it was so so beautiful. This was the only pair that looked nice with my gigantic feet. I even went back to the shop three times because I know I shouldn’t get them but I couldn’t let it go. I’ve already bought a pretty expensive (in my opinion) working shoe because the one I was wearing was really worn out – I didn’t have much choice but to get them. To get another expensive (again in my opinion) pair of heels that I would seldom wear was unthinkable. I asked my sister what she thinks and she agrees the shoe is really gorgeous and if I have extra money, then I should get them as a treat. After doing mental calculation with my budget, I told the salesperson to wrap it up, pay the cashier with one eye closed and walked out of the shop feeling so damn happy.
It’s funny how one small thing could lift your spirits so high. I am still smiling thinking about that shoe. I already know what to wear and where to go with it. I just hope I’ll look as good as I imagine in my head. *cough cough*
*yawns like a lazy hippo*
I don’t know why I am so sleepy these days. Maybe I am making up for all the lost sleep. Unfortunately, the dark circles under my eyes can still make the pandas weep. Terrible. I hardly dream these days. The last dream I remember having was That Guy telling me he’s 29 years of age. My subconscious mind is wishing he’s my age I suppose. Hee. He changed his hairstyle and still is very cute and he still remains as the guy for me to drool at only. Not bad what, a motivation for me to go to work every day.
My mom surprised me the other day by saying I am being too choosy and that is why I am still single. Heh? Choosy meh? I don’t think so. I mean, I am choosing someone to spend the rest of my life with and at the same time a father for Ekiel, so I have the right to be particular don’t I? I think my mom is feeling the pressure to have her kids marry as all her friends and relatives who have children our age are doing so. It doesn’t make sense , I know but there’s many things in life that doesn’t make sense. This is one of them.
Someone applied for eight days of leave and got approved. So bloody unfair. Can someone please tell me how long will these injustices last? I want to vomit blood every time it happens.
Went out with my siblings last Friday. It wasn’t the best outing but it was okay because I enjoyed the live band performances. I noticed that most of the club patrons were either ten years my junior or ten years my senior. So, where did those people in between go? Was there a secret place that I do not know of? Seriously?
I enjoy dancing but it feels wrong to shake my booty alone – the siblings don’t dance. When I see someone dances alone, I would lift one eyebrow and think that person lives a very sad life. I do not want to be that person. So that night I danced in my little square box (the place where I was standing) pretending the rest of the world doesn’t exist.
So, for my thirtieth birthday, I want to go dancing. It would be a bonus if I have a man (preferably someone who can dance) with me, which I doubt but I’m crossing all my fingers and toes for being optimistic sake. Someone “did” promise me a man. *whistles*
I bought a very nice pair of opened toe heels yesterday. It wasn’t in my “Things I Need Urgently” list but it was so so beautiful. This was the only pair that looked nice with my gigantic feet. I even went back to the shop three times because I know I shouldn’t get them but I couldn’t let it go. I’ve already bought a pretty expensive (in my opinion) working shoe because the one I was wearing was really worn out – I didn’t have much choice but to get them. To get another expensive (again in my opinion) pair of heels that I would seldom wear was unthinkable. I asked my sister what she thinks and she agrees the shoe is really gorgeous and if I have extra money, then I should get them as a treat. After doing mental calculation with my budget, I told the salesperson to wrap it up, pay the cashier with one eye closed and walked out of the shop feeling so damn happy.
It’s funny how one small thing could lift your spirits so high. I am still smiling thinking about that shoe. I already know what to wear and where to go with it. I just hope I’ll look as good as I imagine in my head. *cough cough*
*yawns like a lazy hippo*
I don’t know why I am so sleepy these days. Maybe I am making up for all the lost sleep. Unfortunately, the dark circles under my eyes can still make the pandas weep. Terrible. I hardly dream these days. The last dream I remember having was That Guy telling me he’s 29 years of age. My subconscious mind is wishing he’s my age I suppose. Hee. He changed his hairstyle and still is very cute and he still remains as the guy for me to drool at only. Not bad what, a motivation for me to go to work every day.
My mom surprised me the other day by saying I am being too choosy and that is why I am still single. Heh? Choosy meh? I don’t think so. I mean, I am choosing someone to spend the rest of my life with and at the same time a father for Ekiel, so I have the right to be particular don’t I? I think my mom is feeling the pressure to have her kids marry as all her friends and relatives who have children our age are doing so. It doesn’t make sense , I know but there’s many things in life that doesn’t make sense. This is one of them.
Someone applied for eight days of leave and got approved. So bloody unfair. Can someone please tell me how long will these injustices last? I want to vomit blood every time it happens.
Went out with my siblings last Friday. It wasn’t the best outing but it was okay because I enjoyed the live band performances. I noticed that most of the club patrons were either ten years my junior or ten years my senior. So, where did those people in between go? Was there a secret place that I do not know of? Seriously?
I enjoy dancing but it feels wrong to shake my booty alone – the siblings don’t dance. When I see someone dances alone, I would lift one eyebrow and think that person lives a very sad life. I do not want to be that person. So that night I danced in my little square box (the place where I was standing) pretending the rest of the world doesn’t exist.
So, for my thirtieth birthday, I want to go dancing. It would be a bonus if I have a man (preferably someone who can dance) with me, which I doubt but I’m crossing all my fingers and toes for being optimistic sake. Someone “did” promise me a man. *whistles*
Monday, January 07, 2008
Friday, January 04, 2008
flirting anyone?
I hate my sunburn. I look like a hideous monster in some movie. *sob sob* I don’t know why I never learned to apply and reapply sun block lotion every time I am under the sun. I thought I’d rough it out. *sticks tongue out* BIG mistake.
I wonder how long it would be before I look normal again. *sighs*
I am SO bored with everything. I need something exciting and lively in my life. It doesn’t have to be a guy, but something for me to look forward to. Like a vacation or a new gadget.
When I win that RM18million jackpot, the first thing I’ll do after settling all my financial thingy is to go for vacations with my family and close friends, go to the beach, enjoying the sea breeze and the sunshine or at some highland, enjoying the fresh air and beautiful greenery. See, I’ve got it all planned out. Now all I have to do is win that jackpot.
The other day, I read an article on Y! News. I can’t remember who did the research/survey, but it says that flirting is harmless and is actually good for you to improve your relationship. Heh? Why you ask?
Apparently, Flirting Can Help Your Relationship
- Flirting gives you confidence
- Flirting keeps you sharp
- Flirting lets you build up sexual energy
- Flirting reminds you how good you have it
What is flirting?
Flirting is a form of human interaction, usually expressing a sexual or romantic interest in the other person. It can consist of conversation, body language, or brief physical contact. It may be one-sided or reciprocated. Source: Wikipedia
This is good news for the singles but I don’t know what couples would think. I imagine most would disagree fearing that the harmless flirting would lead to infidelity and other things. I don’t blame them as most people do not think with their head. Yes, you need to have trusts in your relationship but what if the other party abuse that trust? People these days are so easy to give in to temptation.
I used to be okay with my other half flirting with another woman as long it is just harmless flirting. I mean, I do it too with a limit of course. The idea of another woman wanting my other half is but he picks you is… nice. Unfortunately, one gave in to temptation and no matter how sorry/drunk he was, it hurts. You can forgive but it’s difficult to forget. So what do I think about it now? Hard to say. I’ll let you know once I am in a relationship. *winks*
I am giving myself a headache just thinking about this. My advice is, if you’re weak, don’t go looking for trouble. And, your other half needs to be okay with this. Some idiots will surely use this reason to scratch their itch.
Btw, there is a fine line between flirting and throwing yourself to that someone, no? *whistles*
I miss flirting, but I think my flirting skills are a little rusty if not expired. Someone flirted with me the other day and I didn’t even realize it until my friend told me few days later. *hangs head in shame* My friends laughed at me, but honestly I am a little worried.
What if Mr Right have already flirted with me and I just gave him that dirty look and he got turned off so he went looking for his Ms Not So Right But Can Do larr?
Oh no.
I wonder how long it would be before I look normal again. *sighs*
I am SO bored with everything. I need something exciting and lively in my life. It doesn’t have to be a guy, but something for me to look forward to. Like a vacation or a new gadget.
When I win that RM18million jackpot, the first thing I’ll do after settling all my financial thingy is to go for vacations with my family and close friends, go to the beach, enjoying the sea breeze and the sunshine or at some highland, enjoying the fresh air and beautiful greenery. See, I’ve got it all planned out. Now all I have to do is win that jackpot.
The other day, I read an article on Y! News. I can’t remember who did the research/survey, but it says that flirting is harmless and is actually good for you to improve your relationship. Heh? Why you ask?
Apparently, Flirting Can Help Your Relationship
- Flirting gives you confidence
- Flirting keeps you sharp
- Flirting lets you build up sexual energy
- Flirting reminds you how good you have it
What is flirting?
Flirting is a form of human interaction, usually expressing a sexual or romantic interest in the other person. It can consist of conversation, body language, or brief physical contact. It may be one-sided or reciprocated. Source: Wikipedia
This is good news for the singles but I don’t know what couples would think. I imagine most would disagree fearing that the harmless flirting would lead to infidelity and other things. I don’t blame them as most people do not think with their head. Yes, you need to have trusts in your relationship but what if the other party abuse that trust? People these days are so easy to give in to temptation.
I used to be okay with my other half flirting with another woman as long it is just harmless flirting. I mean, I do it too with a limit of course. The idea of another woman wanting my other half is but he picks you is… nice. Unfortunately, one gave in to temptation and no matter how sorry/drunk he was, it hurts. You can forgive but it’s difficult to forget. So what do I think about it now? Hard to say. I’ll let you know once I am in a relationship. *winks*
I am giving myself a headache just thinking about this. My advice is, if you’re weak, don’t go looking for trouble. And, your other half needs to be okay with this. Some idiots will surely use this reason to scratch their itch.
Btw, there is a fine line between flirting and throwing yourself to that someone, no? *whistles*
I miss flirting, but I think my flirting skills are a little rusty if not expired. Someone flirted with me the other day and I didn’t even realize it until my friend told me few days later. *hangs head in shame* My friends laughed at me, but honestly I am a little worried.
What if Mr Right have already flirted with me and I just gave him that dirty look and he got turned off so he went looking for his Ms Not So Right But Can Do larr?
Oh no.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
third day of the new year
My colleague agrees that my chair looks different and dustier for a less than a year old chair. See, I wasn’t imaging it after all. To the chair stealer, damn you.
My family had our annual family activity and this year we went for a picnic at Tanjung Aru beach.
Before I continue, I must say I was embarrassed to see the condition of the beach. It was DIRTY. I didn’t even dare to go in the water. Local and foreign tourists go to the beach expecting a clean and beautiful beach. Instead of blue water and white sandy beaches welcoming them, they get littered beaches and sea. How sad is that? Very.
The family outing turned out well. Plenty of food and all the kids, especially Ekiel had fun. All of them are burnt because they sit under the sun a little too long attempting to build sandcastles, which did not turn out so well. Hee. My son was busy kicking and throwing sand. He loves the way it flew with the wind.
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HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!!
*woohoo*
How’s your New Year’s Eve celebration? Ours was just a moderate but filling one. My brother wanted a Chinese menu to compensate all the Chinese New Year he missed. So, we had a Chinese menu minus the oranges and the and pows. Oh yes, we did gamble a bit otherwise it wouldn’t be Chinese New Year.
2008 felt ordinary. Though I can hear the fireworks, there are definitely no fireworks in my life. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but it can’t be the same old thing again. And again. And again. Right?
Oh well. This is just the beginning of a new year and I am sure/hopeful that many good things will happen. Last year wasn’t that bad really but I guess I am just being a pain in the arse for wanting more. I couldn’t remember if I have made New Year resolution last year (I know I could check my previous entry but I am so lazy). For this year, I talked myself to do a list. A practical achievable list. BUT being the pig I am, I may not be able to achieve any of them anyway. Remember my Learn A Different Language Project? I rest my case.
For that reason, I will not put up my list. I will however, reveal it when I accomplish it. If I don’t, then I will put it up at the end of the year for some thrashing/motivational talk. Okay?
When I heard about the so-called “fan club”, I was surprised. Like heh?
Let’s not think about the wrong side of this but I must admit it feels so damn good.
I’ve forgotten how it feels to be on a natural high.
My family had our annual family activity and this year we went for a picnic at Tanjung Aru beach.
Before I continue, I must say I was embarrassed to see the condition of the beach. It was DIRTY. I didn’t even dare to go in the water. Local and foreign tourists go to the beach expecting a clean and beautiful beach. Instead of blue water and white sandy beaches welcoming them, they get littered beaches and sea. How sad is that? Very.
The family outing turned out well. Plenty of food and all the kids, especially Ekiel had fun. All of them are burnt because they sit under the sun a little too long attempting to build sandcastles, which did not turn out so well. Hee. My son was busy kicking and throwing sand. He loves the way it flew with the wind.
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HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!!
*woohoo*
How’s your New Year’s Eve celebration? Ours was just a moderate but filling one. My brother wanted a Chinese menu to compensate all the Chinese New Year he missed. So, we had a Chinese menu minus the oranges and the and pows. Oh yes, we did gamble a bit otherwise it wouldn’t be Chinese New Year.
2008 felt ordinary. Though I can hear the fireworks, there are definitely no fireworks in my life. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but it can’t be the same old thing again. And again. And again. Right?
Oh well. This is just the beginning of a new year and I am sure/hopeful that many good things will happen. Last year wasn’t that bad really but I guess I am just being a pain in the arse for wanting more. I couldn’t remember if I have made New Year resolution last year (I know I could check my previous entry but I am so lazy). For this year, I talked myself to do a list. A practical achievable list. BUT being the pig I am, I may not be able to achieve any of them anyway. Remember my Learn A Different Language Project? I rest my case.
For that reason, I will not put up my list. I will however, reveal it when I accomplish it. If I don’t, then I will put it up at the end of the year for some thrashing/motivational talk. Okay?
When I heard about the so-called “fan club”, I was surprised. Like heh?
Let’s not think about the wrong side of this but I must admit it feels so damn good.
I’ve forgotten how it feels to be on a natural high.
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