Wednesday, May 31, 2006

What's the fuss Leonardo?

Happy Kaamatan to all fellow Sabahan.
Aramaitii!!!

2 days of public holiday. It’s not enough if you ask me. Hee.

I finally read The Da Vinci Code.
Honestly, I don’t see what the fuss is about.
People would not just give up their belief overnight over a book.
If they do, then they do not have faith in their religion in the first place.
People are only afraid of things they cannot understand.

Me? I am simply curious.
Sure I googled The Last Supper and The Madonna on the Rocks paintings.
I study both pictures to find out how they conclude their theories.
What did I find?
When you believe in something, you will see/hear what you want to believe.
It’s as simple as that.

Everyone loves a conspiracy.

Except my dad.
I would love to hear what my dad think about the book.
(My dad is a very devout Catholic)
He felt asleep reading the first two pages.
*grinning*

I still prefer my Harry Potter books. :P

Sunday, May 28, 2006

The Umbrella, The Heels and The Show-Offs

Yesterday was the day a good friend of mine got hitch. :D
*clap clap clap* Congratulations to both you and you hubby.
May you live happily ever after.

Imelda, you looked absolutely gorgeous.
You so deserve all the happiness in the world.
And I know you are happy, you were glowing so beautifully last night.
*hugs & kisses*

To her hubby, don’t you dare go breaking her heart.
If you do, then you better hope to never see me again.
*looking brutal* Hee.

The night was memorable.
There was that incident with the malfunctioned umbrella.
*LOL*
Pouring heavily, umbrella opened the other way, friend trying to hide (her body in the car, umbrella sticking out) from everyone while holding on to the malfunctioned umbrella.

Then we have the high heel incident.
I am not gonna mentioned who (she would kill me if I do) but somebody’s heel gave up on her while she was walking on the red carpet.
Hehehe. It was pretty funny.
She called out to me discreetly.
Then she asked, “Can you please pick up my shoe for me?”
I was a little blur when she looked down, and I looked down.
There it was the highest pair of heels I’ve seen. Well, what was left of it anyway. (see pic)
Thank goodness for the extra pair of heels.
Imagine going around bare footed when you already all dressed/dolled up.

I wanted to keep the umbrellas we were carrying together with the other umbrellas at the corner of the lobby. Me, being SO smart, wanted to put it against the wall because I was afraid someone might take it. Hee. Before I know it, the whole stack of umbrellas was on the floor. Tried to restack it again but it was a crazy night and the stack was just impossible to redo. We left the umbrellas scattered on the floor. *whistles*

Food was served. Speeches were made. Toasts were toasted. Pictures were taken.
Then we say goodnight.

It was a simple event but it was a happy one.
I met some friends from high school whom I haven’t met since that last day of school.
(10 years ago?)
People changed.
I know that.
But, I was still surprised to see the changes.
How success, marriage – being married puts you above the rest meh?, and your new circle of friends can change you.

I am glad some of us have not changed that much.
Maybe we don’t look so young and innocent anymore.
But in the inside we are still that same girl who loves life and able to laugh about everything and even at ourselves.

I miss that the most.
(see pic in photo album - Imelda's Wedding)

the moral of the story is.

I begin to think the root to most problems is miscommunication.
And when miscommunication happens, no one bothers to clear up the confusion.
*rolling eyes*
There could be thousands of excuses for the "don't care" attitude.
Envy, resentfulness, laziness, retaliation, just for the sake of it...
I couldn't think of the thousand excuses NOW, but I am sure there is that many.

By now everyone knows how I feel about Common Sense.
If these people would just practice some common sense in their life,
I am very VERY sure the world would be a happier place.
Even if we hate/dislike/unhappy with our job,
we still need to take the initiative to at least be somewhat efficient.
Work is work. Personal feelings SHOULD be put aside.
(Easier said than done - I KNOW)
I also know how frustrating it is to work with overbearing higher-ups.
Been there. Done that. Back in that dump again.

We could be great, but these people choose to be "as long the job is done".
That is not even average.

Marriage that just focuses on sexual needs (Borneo Post - 27 May 2006, Front Page) Kuala Lumpur: A university professor has suggested that men in Malaysia practice Misyar marriage to overcome the rising number of unmarried divorcees and women.

Utusan Malaysia, reporting on its front page, quoted Universiti Malaya's Islamic Academic Studies lecturer Prof Datuk Dr Mahmud Zuhdi Abdul Majid as saying that this type of wedding could also reduce the incidence of vice among Muslim women.

He said the difference between Misyar and a polygamous marriage was that the husband did not have to provide money or clothing for his other wife but only be there to provide for her sexual needs.

Dr Mahmud Zuhdi said this wedding is popular in the Middle East involving rich women who had difficulty looking for a life partner.

He added that even renowned Islamic ulama Dr Yusuf al-Qardawi in his edict said Misyar is legal as it could solve the problems of unmarried women or divorcees.

The practice is allowed and deemed to be necessary by several ulamas in some countries in the Middle East.

The Misyar marriage came into the picture after several groups urged the Fatwa Council to study if it could be implemented in Malaysia, according to him.

He said such a marriage should be practiced in this country, as there is a rising number of unmarried women or divorcees.

Unbelievable.
Maybe I misunderstood the "good intention" of these people.
BUT,
Are we (women) really that weak/pathetic?
Is the single or divorced status amongst women is a bad label?
What sort of vice are they saying happening among the Muslim women?
(if it is what I assume it is, why blame the women only? It takes two to tango and do many other things).
Isn't it just legalized sex?
Wouldn't it increase the numbers of divorce rates?

Let's be honest, once you're bored with the sex,
what else do you have to keep the relationship going?
Chances are, you will begin to look for a "new" partner because we are all human and because the law says we can scratch our "itch" in a legal way. HA.

No matter how noble the intention is, someone will definitely take advantage of the circumstances.
I am afraid, instead of being a solution, this proposal will be a cause for another social problem in our society.

If other country practices it, it doesn't mean we should too. Isn't this what we preach about the western influences and all? :P

Saturday, May 27, 2006

treat me like s*** will you?

An idiot would always be an idiot.

Remember the woman at the Maybank counter? I went back last Wednesday as per my appointment, and she still pisses me off.
Though I was the second customer queuing up at the front counter, she told me to wait while she distribute the “formal” queuing number and also directing everyone to wherever they’re suppose to go.

Finally she finished doing what she was doing and she then ask me (again!) whether I have an appointment. No, I am just standing here right next to your counter because I love you so much. HA. I told her yes I do at 9.15am today. She then asked me again if I have an appointment. I told her yes I do at 9.15am. Then she ask me if it’s today (Wednesday). I told her yes today. She then looked at me, and asked me AGAIN if it’s today. I wanted to throttle her so badly.

First of all, the date and time of the appointment was written in the form she was holding and reading through. Secondly, she was just irritating and rude. I was so frustrated; I raised my voice and told her YES IT IS TODAY UNLESS TODAY IS NOT WEDNESDAY! She then directed me to a counter where the counter guy was so much nicer and friendlier.

That woman should do filing jobs where she doesn’t need to interact with another human being. Btw, I wasn’t the only one who was upset with her kay. Some guy even demanded to see the manager. I should have done the same, but I didn't want to inconvenience anybody. :P

Then later, a manager in the office was pissing me off too. He wanted some things from the store room and I had to take it for him. I usually use the back door which was next to the ladies because it was so much nearer to the store room. I have to walk around the office if i were to go through the main door. He saw me going to the back and he asked me why am I going to the ladies when I should be going to the store room instead. He had this look on his face as if I was stoopid or something. I told him I’m using the back door. He said fine, do what you think you're doing and he ROLLED HIS EYES. Wtf? Eh hello, he obviously didn’t know where to store room is and I am gonna SO NOT going to walk the long way to get the books for him.

When I should obviously throw the books at him, I told him to let me know if he needs anything else instead. *Arggghh* My attempt to “kiss his arse” was taking too much energy. I cannot do all this sucking up thingy.

My headaches are back. It wasn’t as bad as before but I do still feel very awful.

On 23 May 2006, a good friend of mine, Tara gave birth to a lovely baby girl - Kendra Faith Morris. Nice name kan? She is the fairest baby I have ever seen with dimples some more. So precious! It is Tara’s first child and watching her that day reminded me what I was feeling and experiencing exactly a year ago. It was just beautiful.

I wish I will get to experience it again. The proper way, of course. Once bitten, twice die larr.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Happy Birthday To You

Happy Birthday To You, Happy Birthday To you,
Happy Birthday To Ekiel,
Happy Birthday To You.

You’re one today. *clap clap clap*
It feels like it was only yesterday when I had you.
The two-day contraction, the pushing and the labor pain.
The fear when I didn’t hear you cry and the doctors rushed you out.
The joy to know you were okay despite the complications.

You were beautiful.
Huge almond-like eyes.
A cone-shaped head.
Ten little fingers.
Ten little toes.
And still is.

If I wasn’t sure before,
I knew at that moment that everything will be okay.
Even if it’s just the two of us.

I love you with all my being.
I wish I could give you the world.
I wish I could protect you from the things you have to go through.
I pray that you will have the wisdom and the courage to understand.
I pray that your life is filled with many blessings and happiness always.

Happy birthday little boy.
You have made me a very proud mommy.
Just try to behave a little okay?

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

give me the patience....

It’s raining outside.
If only I didn’t have to work tomorrow.
*sigh*

Is it just me or is someone out there is trying to test my sanity and patience?
After two weeks of work, I FINALLY went to do the medical check-up thingy and open a bank account with Maybank.

Since I don’t drive and my dad doesn’t do chauffeuring, last Sunday I had to take the bus to Api-Api Centre where the clinic is. It was the hottest day of the week, and I dragged myself all the way to the clinic only to be told by a R-U-D-E nurse the doctor is not in for the day. 24 hour clinic with no doctor – great! I asked her what happens when there is an emergency. She told me to come back the next day. I dragged myself back home.

How can I not get so irritated?

This morning (Monday), I went to the clinic and (Had to plead with my dad to drive me around) it only took me 15 minutes to get it all done. *rolls eyes* Btw, the toilet was a shame. Gross. *Yuck!* It’s a clinic for goodness sake. Someone didn’t bother to aim. WTF? *Sheesh*

Since we were super duper early, we waited for 45 minutes for the bank to open.

While waiting, my dad was walking around the entrance hall like he was the big boss or something. He went to inspect all the posters, notices and what not. He went and busybody at the ATM machines place. He even chit-chat with the security guards, asking them how was work and all. Hee. All those years he was just my boring and old-fashioned dad. Today, I saw a different side of him and I know I will remember and appreciate that moment forever.

Finally the bank opens. Went to the counter and some rude and idiotic woman told me I need to make an appointment to open an account with them. WTF? Since when? I told her my office didn’t tell me about this. She ignored me. SHE DIDN’T EVEN BOTHER TO HELP ME MAKE AN APPOINTMENT. Stoopid bi***! Luckily there was another young lady at the counter who helped me set the appointment.

I don’t understand why you need to make an appointment? Why are they limiting themselves to a number of customers who opens an account in one day? They’re making too much money already is it? Dang.

Anyway, I just want to point out that there is something seriously not right with our service industry. The way they handled their customers (me!) are just plain rude and not helpful. THEY DIDN’T EVEN BOTHER TO APOLOGIZE FOR THE INCONVENIENCES. So difficult ka to say:
“I am sorry but you need to make an appointment to open a bank account. Can I help you to make an appointment now? Thank you”
”I am sorry but the doctor won’t be in today. Can I help to set up an appointment for you tomorrow? Thank you”

I try so hard to please and be polite to my customers. But these people? And I wasn’t even trying to be anything but nice to them. When I am given that kind of treatment, of course I retaliate and become a bi*** myself. So am I being a difficult customer?

Maybe I wasn’t rich looking enough for them to kiss my arse? All these double standards is just stupid.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

I want to vomit blood

“I want to vomit blood”. A phrase I used to laugh at, but that is how I feel today.
*sigh*

I found out Elliot was voted off from AI5. *sob sob* They chose a guy who is possessed by an unknown being every time he is on stage and a girl with an attitude problem and weird body movements/languages. If I have to choose, I will choose the “Soul Patrol” definitely. At least he doesn’t butcher the songs by doing too much just because she can do all the… oh you know what I mean.

I don’t care larr. They are not MY idol. I don’t even give this much attention to MI. If they chose contestants as talented as Elliot or Mandisa then maybe people would pay more attention to MI kan?

Today at work, they had an Employee & Manager of the Month Award thingy, May - Birthday Celebrations and some other things I couldn’t remember. I was never at this kind of thing. At first I find it quite interesting but soon after I arrived, I couldn’t wait to go back to my table. It was hot and I was standing there like an idiot. I didn’t know what to do or what to expect. All I did was standing there, smiling, nodding my head acknowledging the other people and clapping my hands whenever necessary. Oh well, at least I managed to grab a Lebanese kebab and a glass of Teh Tarik.

Second week is almost over and I still find it difficult to blend in. I hate the first month of work. I tried to joke around and relax a bit with everyone but somehow it feels like I am not getting a positive response from them. Too much sarcasm in my voice? Not enough dirty talk? I am smiling too much? Hey, cut me some slack larr. Get to know me a little better then you’ll know what fun I can be. Please? So sad kan?

I am so used to be around friends it’s not easy being the new girl.

Was I like that with the freshies in the office before? I like to think not. HA. It’s Karma biting me in the arse again huh?

Dang. Though I have a busy day with work and baby at home, I am bored. BORED. BORED. BORED.

Dear Universe,
Please make my life a little bit more interesting. Interesting in a good way ya. I don’t need another headache in my life.

It would be superb if it has anything to do with winning the jackpot or inheritance from long lost who knows from where distant relative. Mr Perfect would be nice too, but for that, I don’t mind waiting a little bit more.

I promise to complain lesser and to appreciate the good things for all my life. In fact, I will also share it with my family, well with anyone who doesn’t annoy me that much. *wink*

Thank you.
Cheers!


Warmest Regards,
Clara

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Happy(s)


I am so tired. How does the other working mother do this? (and I don’t have to worry about house chores/cooking! *tsk tsk tsk*)

Ekiel is getting better. He lost a lot of weight but he is gaining it back. He still won’t eat but now he demands for his bottle every two hours. Take your sweet time to prepare it and he’ll throw a tantrum. *sigh* Well, IT IS a sign that he is recovering so I will just take it gratefully.

Work, well it is work. I still feel out of place and no idea what I am doing or supposed to do. Maybe I am imagining it, but I swear people are talking about me and I am too snotty to even care. “Stick and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me” – Ha. We all know that is not true.

I am just not excited about work. Maybe it’s the long break. Maybe it’s the incredibly BORING task that I am forced to do. Maybe it’s the office environment. Maybe I am just plain lazy. *yawn* The corporate ladder doesn’t look so appealing at the moment but I’m sure I will have to climb it eventually. I ain’t gonna conquer no mountain. I just wanna survive this game of life.

I may change my mind in the future.

I read in the local papers how women can actually rely on their instincts when it comes to trusting men. Or something like that.

See I am not choosy/demanding. I am just avoiding disastrous mistakes. I just need to tell myself, err i meant everyone that. Hee.

Happy (belated) Mother’s Day to all mothers and mothers-to-be.
I used to think motherhood was easy.
I TAKE IT ALL BACK.

Sunday was mother’s day and all I got from my baby was him vomiting on me the whole day.
What a joy.

Oohh... & Happy Teacher's Day to all my friends who are in the teaching business (?). You know what I mean...

Cheers!

Friday, May 12, 2006

It's only Thursday

It has been A LONG WEEK and it is only Thursday. *grin* It feels long.

I finally got a job. YAYY!!! The pay sucks but I’ve withdraw my last RM in the bank. Beggars cannot be choosers. *flashbacks* Hmmm… From advertising to hotel line. I’ve gone from one hell hole to another but I think *keeping my fingers crossed* it will not be THAT bad. I just have to make sure I don’t let people push me around like the last time. It’s going to be tough because everyone here is terribly good at doing that. Ha.

The past four days, I’ve been doing a lot of physical work. Nothing major like mixing cement, but more like sorting out newspaper clippings, updating the hardcopy inventories, packing press kits, carrying/delivering stuffs all over the place in my killing-me-slowly heels, faxing and photocopying. Nothing that my five years working experience hadn’t prepared me. Boring but it is work.

The lady whom I took over the position from is a sweet woman AND a potential pain in the arse. Even when I told her I knew how to operate the fax/photocopying machine, she keeps explaining it to me like I am an eight year old. After a while it becomes really really annoying - “Now you show me how I do it”. *banging my head against the fax machine*

One time when they were talking about advertisements and newspaper, I kinda interrupt by offering my opinion. I swear she just shuts down. I am not sure if she didn’t hear me, or she thinks I'm talking crazy. I take it as being RUDE. I know I am the new staff but hey I know what I am talking about. Oh well, if the ad goes wrong again (I secretly wish it would – I am evil aren’t I?) she is the one responsible. And I couldn’t believe she turned down a free replacement advertisement because it was too much work!!! What is wrong with all these people??? She thinks free advertisement just fall from the sky ka?

*sigh* It’s still too early to be complaining this much yet I have so SO much more to complain. If before I wasn’t sure it was a good idea to accept the offer, now I am convinced it will not be easy. How do I fit in without attracting too much attention/causing a stir? I just hope I have enough patience to learn what I need to know so I wouldn’t need to depend on these people. Btw, I overheard them saying I look weird – not Chinese nor Kadazan. *LOL* Does it matter?

My baby didn’t appreciate being left behind but he enjoys the car ride more (when my dad sends me to work). When they come to pick me in the evening, he’ll give me this “Who are you?” look before giving me his sweetest smile and comes to me to “manja” when he realize it’s me. I do miss him, but I do enjoy working and even the pathetic pay.

He is now so sick; he is like a helpless pup. He whimpers in his croaky voice and wants attention all the time. The doctor suspects he has asthma but he didn’t confirm nor deny it and my mom forgot to ask. My poor baby. It breaks my heart to see him like that especially when he has to fight for his breath. He no longer has fever, but his cough and short breaths are still there.

It’s hard. Mannn... I have to work this Saturday. Dang.

Friday, May 05, 2006

oh please tell me...

I found an interesting game in some chick’s blog. I used to play this game with my girl friends. Hee. Sometimes it’s very true/accurate. Maybe it’s coincidence. Maybe it was signs sent by the universe. :D either way, it is fun.What you do is set your MP3 player on shuffle and ask it (rather like a magic 8 ball with multiple-word answers) the following questions. As each question comes up, you read the next song title, which will be your answer.

1. How does the world see me?
Stickwitu – PCD [the world loves me? *tear tear* well don’t stick too close ya. I need my space]

“Nobody's gonna love me bette/, I must stickwitu forever/ Nobody's gonna take me higher/ I must stickwitu/ You know how to appreciate me/ I must stickwitu my baby/ Nobody ever made me feel this way/ I must stickwitu”


2. Will I have a happy life?
Dancing In The Moonlight – Toploader [this is my happy happy song. *dancing my Chicken Little dance* come people, dance with me *doing my Saturday Nite Fever moves*]

“We like our fun and we never fight/ You can't dance and stay uptight/ It's a supernatural delight/ Everybody was dancin' in the moonlight/ Dancin' in the moonlight/ Everybody's feelin' warm and bright/ It's such a fine and natural sight/ Everybody's dancin' in the moonlight”


3. What do people really think of me?
Time After Time – Eva Cassidy [People think of me as a sad case? LOL if I fall you will catch me? well, okay but I gotta warn you, I am heavy and I ainn't your brother. Break your bones at your own risk :P]

“If you're lost you can look and you will find me/ time after time/ If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting/ time after time/ If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting/ time after time/ time after time”


4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Goodbye My Lover – James Blunt [I KNEW IT! I knew it! LOL. “I’m too sexy for this song” *wink*]

“You touched my heart you touched my soul/ You changed my life and all my goals/ And love is blind and that I knew when/ My heart was blinded by you/ I've kissed your lips and held your head/ Shared your dreams and shared your bed/ I know you well, I know your smell/ I've been addicted to you”


5. How can I make myself happy?
Rich Girl – Gwen Stefani [Show me the MOONNEEEYYYY!!! So true. I would be happy too if I could wear what Gwen wore in this video clip. hahahaha]

“If I was a rich girl (na, na....)/ See, I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl/ No man could test me, impress me, my cash flow would never ever end/ Cause I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl”


6. What should I do with my life?
Buses and Trains – Bachelor Girls [watch out for a train? fall in love again? Avoid chocolate and ciggies? :D keeping my fingers and toes crossed]

“So I walked under a bus, I got hit by a train/ Keep falling in love, which is kinda the same/ I've sunk out at sea, crashed my car, gone insane/ And it felt so good, I wanna do it again/ Hey mum! Why didn't you want me?/ Cause I found boys were something I should have known/ They're like chocolate cake, like cigarettes/ I know they're bad for me, but I just can't leave them alone”


7. What would be a good advice for me?
I Will Survive – Gloria Gaynor [couldn’t be more appropriate! As long as I know how to love I know I’ll stay alive – so true]

“Oh no, not I/ I will survive/ Oh as long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive/ I've got all my life to live/ I've got all my love to give and I'll survive/ I will survive. Hey hey/ It took all the strength I had not to fall apart/ Kept trying' hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart/ And I spent oh so many nights/ Just feeling sorry for myself. I used to cry/ But now I hold my head up high”


8. What is my current theme song?
I wish – Gabrielle [I wish I hit the Jackpot. I often watch you in the paper. My heart skips a beat every Wednesday, Saturday and Sunday also on Special Draw days. LOL]

”I often watch you/ When you're least aware/ Even though I know/ It's really rude to stare/ Sometimes I find/ I just can't help myself/ 'Cos I want you/ want nobody else/ My heart skips a beat/ Whenever you are near/ And I just don't know/ What I'm gonna do”


9. What does everyone think my current theme song is?
Tell Me What You Need – Eve [You have lotsa money, I need lotsa money X5 ladies X10]

“Got What You Need/ So tell me what you need/ I Got What You Need/ So tell me what you need/ Tell me what you need/ I Got What You Need/ Tell me what you need/ I Got What You Need/ Now - ladies, ladies, ladies, ladies/ Ladies, ladies, ladies/ Ladies, ladies, ladies”


10. What song will play at my funeral?
All or Nothing – Athena Cage [*grin* I know it sounds morbid BUT I couldn’t think of any other song I would love them to play]

"Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem/ you gotta work to get the cream/ on your hopes you must lean/ from your fears, you have to win yourself/ It's all or nothing, give your everything/ The hardest to recovery/ From the heartbreak of another kind/ I’m still drying my tears/ Getting over my own fears/ in my life, so I wanna make sure this time/ that I'm strong enough/ to give it my all”


11. What type of men do I like?
8th World Wonder – Kimberly Locke [and people say I'm demanding. :P where can I get one of these? Where?]

“Seven days and seven nights of thunder/ The water's rising and I'm slipping under/ I think I fell in love with the/ eighth world wonder/ yeah, yeah, yeaahhh”


12. What’s my day going to be like?
Wannabe – Spice Girls [err, it will be a day of miscommunications and confusions? I think this is a conversation between me and my 11 mth old son! *chuckle* Btw, what’s “wanna zigazig ahh?”]

“Yo I'll tell you what I want, what I really want/ So tell me what you want, what you really really want/ I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want/ So tell me what you want, what you really really want/ I wanna [huh], I wanna [huh], I wanna [huh], I wanna [huh]/ I wanna really really really wanna zigazig ahh”


13. Why am I here?
Basket Case – Green Day [to complain and whine about nothing and everything all at once. Tough but I shall try my damnest best. LOL]

“Do you have the time/ To listen to me whine about nothing and everything all at once/ I am one of those/ melodramatic fools neurotic to the bone no doubt about it”


14. What will people remember me for?
Take a Bow – Madonna [hmm, I am a Drama Queen who clowns for a side income. I could win an Oscar but I am lonely. *clap clap clap*]

“Make them laugh, it comes so easy/ When you get to the part/ Where you're breaking my heart [breaking my heart]/ Hide behind your smile, all the world loves a clown/ [Just make 'em smile the whole world loves a clown]/ Wish you well, I cannot stay/ You deserve an award for the role that you played [role that you played]/ No more masquerade, you're one lonely star/ [One lonely star and you don't know who you are]]


15. Are they people outside waiting to take me away?
All 4 Love – Color Me Badd [They’re taking me away because they love me. I AM BEAUTIFUL so they will use flowers to make me fill him full? LOL]

“I'm so glad you're my girl/ I'll do anythung 4 U/ Call U evry night/ And give U flowers 2/ I thank the Lord 4 U/ And think about U all the time/ I ask him everyday/ That you'll 4-ever B mine/ I wanna hold your hand/ 2 show U I'll be there/ I like 2 do the things/ That let U know I care/ I sing this lullabye/ 'Cause girl U fill me full/ I look into your eyes/ You're so beautiful”


16. What will this year be about?
When A Woman – Gabrielle [it’s already middle of the year and the only partying I did was zilch. I look like I just wrestle the Katrina and my whole body is aching. Oh well, I still got half the year right? *Crossing my other fingers and toes*]

“Driving down the highway/ Roberta, Donnie Hathaway, yeah yeah/ Playing on the airwaves/ As we're making our way/ We pull up to a red light/ Check the mirror for the last time (for the last time)/ I know I'm looking just fine and I feel all right/ 'Cos I know I'm gonna party tonight, yeah, baby”